18!!! 🎉

Emily –

My love, my first born, the beautiful soul that made me a mom… I wish you the absolute happiest of birthdays.

18, one of those milestone birthdays. I know you probably feel very “adult” right now and in a lot of ways you are and have been for sometime, but I encourage you to hold on to your youth where you can. Have fun, be silly, enjoy being 18. Don’t rush ahead.

I’m so proud of you for all you have become and all that you are. I love you so much.


Your Mom (and Bailey)

Christopher Felix – 14

My Christopher 🧡

Today you turned 14! Though my head is filled with thoughts, feelings, and emotions I can’t really think of much to write that I haven’t said a million times before.

I still love you just as much. I still think of you nonstop. I still sometimes feel like I can’t breathe when I think of you because the pain is so great.

Today though none of that matters. What matters today is that you turned 14, another whole year older.

I hope you had the very best birthday yet and as you drift off to dream land I hope you feel all the love from those of us who weren’t fortunate enough to see you.

I know you are a big boy/young man now, but in my heart you will always be my baby.

I love you now and forever 🧡


Your Mommy

Happy Easter 🐣

Easter 2022 was spent having an Easter Egg hunt for the puppies, washing tie dye, and working. It was a pretty good day.

Of course you were all thought of often. I used to try to imagine what you all were doing, how you were celebrating, but I’ve come to realize there is no point to doing so. No way of knowing if I’m right or wrong and the pain is just too great.

What I do now is shift to imagining your happiness, your joy, your love… I love you five so much more than all the words could ever express. I hope your day was all that you all hoped it would be.

Sending lots of love tonight and always.



The puppies Easter egg hunt as featured on TikTok

My Handsome Groundhog

Happy Birthday Lucas!

Today you turned 15 years old. Amazing how time flies and stands still all at the same time.

I hope today brought you smiles, amazing memories, and so much love. Know that I’ve been thinking about you (which is nothing new) and wish you the best year ahead.

I love you my little man.

Love always,

Your Mom

No Words

Tonight the words just won’t come. How many different ways can I say I love and miss you? I’m thinking of you and will never forget you? I hope you’re doing well and finding joy? … and on and on…

So tonight I’ll say I know you know all those things. Here are some pics from this year’s Christmas that I took for you all.

Another Year Older

Hi My Baby –

11! Wow! Seems like just yesterday you were born.

You were a silly little guy from day one, my only baby to cry at birth. I’m pretty sure you smiled since the day you were born.

As you grew you always got yourself into trouble but you were so cute about it. You loved to laugh and make others laugh too.

I hope you never stop being the special boy, young man, that you are. I hope you always have inquisitiveness and happy mischievous. Today I hope you had an amazing birthday. Most of all I hope you know just how much I love you (then, now, and always).


Your mommy

Hiya Mama

Hey Mom,

Grandma is letting me take over the keyboard today to wish you a Happy Halloween and show off my snazzy costumes.

Here’s one.

I love pup cups so I thought it would be fun to dress as my favorite baristas. They let me come in to take the picture and thought I was soooooo cute.

Do you drink those yummy Frappuccino’s?

Here’s the next one.

The Little Mermaid my favorite Disney Princess. What’s yours?

What were you for Halloween.

I miss you mom. Hope these pics made you smile.



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