Advice

Something I’d like the 5 of you to know. Please never let anyone push you around and bully you. Stick up for each other but always do it in a legal way.

You are all better than any bully (and if you’re not and you’re reading this it means you’re old enough to know better). Never go to their level.

No matter how many people it appears are against you remember there are a lot more that will be for you. Try to always have one friend you can tell anything to and lots you can rely on for help.

At the same time be kind to everyone even the bad people need someone to say they care. Just don’t be taken advantage of. Use both your heart and your head.

*Saint Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle. Be our protector against the wickedness and snares of the devil. May God rebuke him, we humbly pray; and do thou, O Prince of the heavenly host, by the power of God, cast into hell Satan and all the evil spirits, who wander through the world seeking the ruin of souls. Amen.

Love always,

Mommy

Bailey

My darlings, I took Bailey back today from the nice lady who had been watching her. Unfortunately she had to move. However our “village” will be keeping Bailey safe till you all return.

Emily she looked for you instantly when we pulled up to the house. She remembers her mama surely. When you are old enough to read this I hope that that will give you comfort.

As they say it helps to know we’re sleeping under the same sky. Night my loves.

Love always,

Mommy

Meltdown In Isle 12

Oh my loves today has been a hard day for missing you all as it always is. Sometimes I miss you all so much that it hurts to breath.

At Stop and Shop everything reminds me of at least one of you. Seeing goldfish, chocolate milk, yogurt all threaten to send me into a blubbering mess. However having a meltdown in isle twelve probably wouldn’t look good for my chances of getting you all back.

Miss you all so very much.

Love always,

Mommy

My Deariest Children

It is my hope that some day you all will see this when you are of age and know that your mommy never stopped loving you and never stopped fighting for you. Never in a million years would mommy just hand you over. It was not my choice and though as time goes by you all may not remember the details but I hope you know in your hearts that I wanted you guys always.

Emily and Lucas I know how much you had begged even before that dreadful day not to have to go. I know you were afraid. I hope that it has not been as bad for you two as it has in the past. I have called dcf, the police, and many others and have tried to get you guys out of there. My sweet Christopher I am sorry you were forced to leave my arms last time we saw each other. Your cries as you were being forced into the car broke my heart. My Grace you have always been so strong and always put on a happy face, someday you will hopefully be able to let it all out. My mischievous Nicholas you worry me the most. Playing outside alone, in an SUV, at two and your constant injuries where you are I fear for you greatly.

Unlike what you have all been told it is not about who wins and who looses you. You are all not a carnival prize! You are individuals with very valuable lives. I have tried to stay in touch but my letters and videos to you all are no longer being accepted.

On your birthday Emily I was not allowed to see you or send you a gift. Some of us worked on the chalk Happy Birthdays at your school. We also tried to send in fruit sticks with chocolate dipped strawberries for your class but your father instructed your teacher to throw it out. I would never forget you on your birthday.

Hopefully you are all back in my arms soon, but if not I want to keep this for you and update it as I think of you guys. Clearly, not something I could do every time I think of you all though as I would never stop typing. Even in my dreams you are all there.

Love always,

Mommy