Lucas is 16 🎉

Look at you almost an adult. It’s so hard to believe that today you turned 16.

I have seen you on the radio several times and each time I’m blown away by your maturity and overall amount of awesomeness.

As you continue to grow and become the man you wish to be I hope you take plenty of time to enjoy each step along the way.

Of course I hope you have had an amazing day and as always I hope you know just how much you are loved. Happy birthday 🎉

Love always,

Your mom

Baby Nicholas Turns 12

My sweet little guy, where has the time gone? It seems like only yesterday you were laughing about saying the word poop and wearing your helmet in your high chair thinking you were funny.

I can’t believe you are already 12. I know 11 wasn’t a great year for you, but I’m hopeful for you that 12 will be better. I’m hopeful at 12 you will learn how to have fun and be a wonderful human at the same time.

I love you Nicholas for who you were, as you are, and who you will become. You will always be my son. Praying this birthday has brought you joy and love. Happy happy birthday.

Love,

Mommy

Baby Nicholas Turns 12

My sweet little guy, where has the time gone? It seems like only yesterday you were laughing about saying the word poop and wearing your helmet in your high chair thinking you were funny.

I can’t believe you are already 12. I know 11 wasn’t a great year for you, but I’m hopeful for you that 12 will be better. I’m hopeful at 12 you will learn how to have fun and be a wonderful human at the same time.

I love you Nicholas for who you were, as you are, and who you will become. You will always be my son. Praying this birthday has brought you joy and love. Happy happy birthday.

Love,

Mommy

17 is here 🎉

My beautiful Grace. How in the world are you 17 already?

As I always say, as you must know by now, I miss you terribly and love you beyond measure.

I hope today has been special for you. I hope you were celebrated today in whatever way makes your heart sing. Most of all though I hope today and always you know just how much you are loved.

Happy birthday beautiful girl 💕

Love always,

Your Mommy

18!!! 🎉

Emily –

My love, my first born, the beautiful soul that made me a mom… I wish you the absolute happiest of birthdays.

18, one of those milestone birthdays. I know you probably feel very “adult” right now and in a lot of ways you are and have been for sometime, but I encourage you to hold on to your youth where you can. Have fun, be silly, enjoy being 18. Don’t rush ahead.

I’m so proud of you for all you have become and all that you are. I love you so much.

Love,

Your Mom (and Bailey)

Christopher Felix – 14

My Christopher 🧡

Today you turned 14! Though my head is filled with thoughts, feelings, and emotions I can’t really think of much to write that I haven’t said a million times before.

I still love you just as much. I still think of you nonstop. I still sometimes feel like I can’t breathe when I think of you because the pain is so great.

Today though none of that matters. What matters today is that you turned 14, another whole year older.

I hope you had the very best birthday yet and as you drift off to dream land I hope you feel all the love from those of us who weren’t fortunate enough to see you.

I know you are a big boy/young man now, but in my heart you will always be my baby.

I love you now and forever 🧡

Love,

Your Mommy

Happy Easter 🐣

Easter 2022 was spent having an Easter Egg hunt for the puppies, washing tie dye, and working. It was a pretty good day.

Of course you were all thought of often. I used to try to imagine what you all were doing, how you were celebrating, but I’ve come to realize there is no point to doing so. No way of knowing if I’m right or wrong and the pain is just too great.

What I do now is shift to imagining your happiness, your joy, your love… I love you five so much more than all the words could ever express. I hope your day was all that you all hoped it would be.

Sending lots of love tonight and always.

Xoxo,

Mommy

The puppies Easter egg hunt as featured on TikTok