Trick or Treat?

Today

My four youngest loves it was so great to see you all today. I loved hearing about your life. Nicholas you were such a little mama hog. You just didn’t want to share. Christopher you broke my heart into even more pieces telling me how much you wanted to move back. It must be do hard for you all to understand why all of this is happening. Not many of us can. We all pray it’ll be over soon. On a brighter note Lucas Im glad you finally got shoes without holes. Hope you find out who cut your hair while you were sleeping causing your father to shave it.

Emily I really missed you. I’m sorry you had to miss out visit. Hope you liked the picture.

Thank you all of your school pics. You’ve all grown up so much and looked so cute.

Love always,

Mommy

Bye Bye Stroller

Oh my darlings Ill be seeing you tomorrow. I just sold the stroller that Mrs Tina gave Nicholas to pay for the visit.

Oh the fun times we had on our walks with that stroller. I was sad to see it go but nothing will keep me from seeing you guys.

Love always,

Mommy

<3

Catholics R Us

Some say Hell is a place on earth. Every moment without you guys makes that statement appear true.

Every Sunday I sit in mass trying not to cry. I always make it till the little ones go down stairs for their mass. It always reminds me of how Christopher used to hop down. The weekends with the kids singing in choir kill me.

You guys are missed so much from everyone at church who loves you. Mary Beth and FR Richard ask about you guys all the time. You are all in everyone’s prayers.

As a none Catholic I still sit in church every Sunday because I know how important it was to you guys. It was your fathers idea for you all to be raised Catholic including going to Catholic school. You guys fully embraced it including all your religious education classes. I respect that and it will continue when you come back. I’m sorry that you have lost that right now.

As always I love and miss you all.

Love always,

Mommy

Stay True

Oh my darlings how you all are loved. I think of you all every second of the day. While watching other children play I am constantly reminded of you guys. No other child could ever replace any of you.

You are all unique and all special in your own ways. It is the uniqueness in you that makes you each who you are.

Being my children you have been raised to be sweet, kind, and caring. Hold onto those traits; don’t let anyway take them from you or tell you they are less than stellar traits to have.

I miss you all greatly. Each day brings us a little closer. Hold tight for you are my babies and I will always fight for each of you.

Love always,

Mommy

Love All You Babies

To Be Or Not To Be

My Lucas, today the focus is on you. You are so smart and so brave. Though so young you always thought of yourself as “the man of the house”. You wanted so bad to be a grown up, but I wanted you to enjoy your childhood. You always tried to protect everyone. That was not your job and I don’t want you to ever feel like you didn’t do enough. Your job was to be a kid.

You have always been extremely smart and scientific. I hope that that is fostered in you always. I hope that you are encouraged to work on the subjects you have trouble with, but more important I hope that you are encouraged to push yourself in the subjects that you excel in already. You can go so far in life.

I am so sorry that I couldn’t help you with what you asked me to help with the other day. I would have liked nothing more than to scoop you up and take you home. Don’t think that I just ignored your request for help I am working on it.

I’ve always been proud of your caring sweet nature. There is nothing wrong with being a caring boy. Caring boys grow up to be caring men. No matter what anyone tells you there is nothing wrong with that. Playing with your siblings, liking pink, and taking care of dolls are all ok. That will not “make you gay”.

However if you do end up being gay for some other reason that will be fine with me. I will always love you no matter what. I’d much rather you be gay than an abuser. That goes for all of you boys and my girls too. I’d rather you play with dolls than make-up being a mom is better than being a promiscuous idiot. None of these things are things you guys should be worried about at the age you are now. When you are old enough to read this I hope that these points are void.

I love you all and always will no matter what. Hope you all stay strong till we work this out.

Love always,

Mommy

Emmy

Emily my artistic little angel. I’m sitting here looking over some of your old artwork and I’m still in aw over your abilities. You definitely have an artistic eye.

I have the box that you made me the night you stayed over with Mrs Kathy. You were so happy to give it to me and I felt so loved to receive it. You put so much thought and effort into all that you do.

I want you to always have your passion. I want you to know that we all have different strengths and just because yours is different it doesn’t make it bad. It’s unique and awesome just like you.

I love you all. See you soon!

Love always,

Mommy

Disney Love <3

My babies, while scrolling through Pinterest I found this:

How To Get A Girl Disney Style

It made me smile. I love Disney and I love the notion of Princes and Princesses but I don’t want any of you to grow up acting like one.

I want each of you to be strong, sweet, caring, smart, brave, and faithful. I want you all to be role models to each other and to your community.

If you have kids I want you to be good parents. That’s why you have all been allowed to play with whatever you want. I don’t want you girls falling into a domestic violence trap and I don’t want you boys being abusers. As kids it was always my hope to teach you those things. I hate what you’re being taught. I’m glad that you are seeing it’s wrong for yourselves and questioning it. I hope that continues but if it doesn’t know there is a time you’ll need to be an adult and take responsibility for your actions.

As the Army says Be All You Can Be! If you always do all you can I will always be proud of you all. I love you guys! Always will, that will never change.

Love always,

Mommy